It has been a long time since I have made a post. Although my heart has been here, life as been happening and so many changes have occurred. Changes aren’t always a bad thing. My changes started out as something that looked bad in the natural, but in the spiritual God was breaking off some things that didn’t need to be there and revealing plans and purpose and rebuilding me. A process that is still taking place. I am reminded of Genesis 50:20, “you intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people” (NLT). It is all part of the process and it doesn’t always feel great but. The results are always amazing, because God is amazing.
I decided I would have my “comeback” post be one of praise to the Lord for healing me of an unknown illness of over 15 years. Since I was in my mid-twenties, every physical I have been on a physical with finds an odd or off test result. At around age 26, maybe 27 a doctor told me I needed to return to his office for more testing because he was positive I had some sort of autoimmune disease but he wasn’t sure what. He threw out names like lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, etc. Then told me he couldn’t be sure until he did more testing. Honestly, I was young and had just been married for about 3 years and I was not trying to hear any of that. So I did what any young Christian on fire for the Lord would do, rebuke the devil and I never went back. Shortly after my husband I decided to move to another state. After my move I never really thought about it again. After a year or so of getting established in the new state I went back to getting regular physicals. Once again, the abnormal numbers showed up in my tests and another doctor started to question what was happening. Without having any background information on me and I wasn’t complaining of anything, he told me about them and told me to come back if I was having any issues. I was so thankful he didn’t mention the same things and I just went along living life as normal.
Normal is a funny word. What was my normal, was not really normal. Over the years I was experiencing changes in my appetite, mood swings, irregular heart beats, trouble sleeping, excessively tired, heat intolerance, some major insomnia, shortness of breath and weight gain, etc. To me, those were a cause for bad eating habits, its hot down south and the heat is for real, I was in school doing my graduate degree so who can sleep, I had my kids during this time, etc. You name it I had excuses why I need to get my act together and take care of myself. Because when you have a busy life like that, these are things that should be happening. Most days I slept maybe 2 to 2 1/2 hours a night and then after about 4 to 5 days I would crash. I remember hearing my mom speak under her breath, but she doesn’t really eat anything bad I so I don’t understand why she put on all that weight. Then she would look at me and tell me you need to sleep. Sleep is essential. However, for me, that was my normal. If I slept 4 hours for the night I was doing good.
Time to fast forward to the life happenings of this year. God has been breaking chains, tearing down strongholds in my life and doing only what He can do. Part of my reveal as He rebuilds me, was to show me what the doctor years ago saw. During the shift we shifted everything, and I mean everything. One was my doctor. I finally went on a comprehensive physical and the doctor told me she was going to check my thyroid as part of my routine testing. Right now as I type this, I am laughing, that was such a God whisper in her ear. One test, one new test, and found what could not be found for over 15 years. In the course of 2 weeks what was hiding was found, diagnosed and put on medication. It has been about 2 months and I have a new normal. I finally realize what it is like to sleep for the night. I think that has been the most profound thing for me. Yes, all the other things are getting better too. The difference in when I get up in the morning is amazing.
I know you were thinking this was a healing story that told of how I had something and it is now gone. Wiped away clean. For me it is. The best part of this autoimmune disease, if I take care of myself and stay consistent with my medication, it will go into remission and I wont have to take medication at all. My friends I am healed. Healed by the blood of Jesus. I am being rebuilt. My new season has come and it has started beautifully. With every experience and every moment God is right there with us. He is teaching us, guiding us and bringing us to and through it all. Deuteronomy 31:6 tells us to be strong and courageous for God never leaves us or forsakes us. He is the friend, guide, counselor, parent, love and everything we need. All praise glory and honor to the one who created me to be unapologetically me for His kingdom!